Ever since I was in sixth grade, I have enjoyed going Christmas shopping on Christmas Eve. I love to watch people who know that whatever they find will be what their loved one wants. And, I also love to watch the people who don't understand that LOVE is the reason for the season and JUST HAVE to HAVE a certain present or they won't be as accepted as the person who only finds what they think will be received with love.
So, because I have very little money and have no choice but to wait for the very last minute in my shopping, I still find joy in watching others and I do my best to find the presents that will show my loves that I truly LOVE them. This year I was only able to buy two presents for each of my children, my husband, my grandchild, and son-in-law. Now, I know that may sound depressing, but when I shop with LOVE in my heart, I feel very lucky to be able to get something my loved ones wanted or needed, but will use and think of me when they do.
One thing that was different for me on this year's venture was the realization that I, too, am deserving of the LOVE I want to show to those in my life. I bought myself two presents, as well. I wrapped them knowing I would LOVE receiving each gift and that I would use each gift knowing that I LOVE MYSELF! I am not a selfish person and I feel no guilt in what I have done. I gave myself a chance to LOVE myself and I SO DO!
Please, do something for the one person who really needs and deserves your LOVE! DO SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF THIS SEASON AND LOVE YOURSELF! In this way, you are not only providing your self love from yourself, but ensuring that your spirit can love the others in your life!
Happy Holidays
Merry Christmas
Happy Yule
Happy Festivus
Happy Hannukah
Happy Kwaanza
Whatever your holiday, BE HAPPY and LOVE everyone, including yourself!!!!
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Monday, December 19, 2011
I wanna run away
I just want to run away. I have come to believe that even though I love everyone I have chosen to be in my life, I have to make them number one and leave myself wanting. I don't want to run away and stay away, but I do think a few weeks away from everyone would be good for me. One person even said, "If you want something, all you have to do is ask." Okay, well I asked for a very minor perk and was told by this same person, "After me." Really? I ask and am still told no, wait, I'm more important and my needs come before you... See, even when I ask to be first, I am supposed to wait, put someone else's wants or needs above my own and forget about my wants or needs until someone else is satisfied and happy. If I were to run away, I could deal with my wants and needs and have satisfaction without being last or "after" someone else. I have been a good person all of my life and I just want to be good to me FIRST for a while. SERIOUSLY!
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Subbing
Comments this week about me being a substitute:
"Well, you don't have a full time job, do you?"
"It's a lot easier being a substitute, isn't it?"
"At least you don't have to go to work if you don't want to."
Here are some facts that I think everyone out there needs to remember:
1. I am a professional and take my job seriously.
2. I substitute because I love teaching and don't yet have my forever classroom.
3. I am not salaried. I get paid for the days I do work and not for any of the days I don't. I have to work every day that I am able to work because I have bills to pay just like everyone else.
4. Teaching in any capacity is hard work when you take your job seriously. I am not there to babysit the kids in a classroom. I want them to be learning the whole time I am there. In fact, if the regular teacher can leave plans where I can actually teach, it makes it easier for the students to see me as a real teacher and then my job won't be as hard. Every day I enter a different classroom and have to learn about the students I am teaching in a very short amount of time. Sometimes, I am lucky enough to be in a class I have been in another time, and then I don't have to work so hard to learn about the students. However, when I don't have plans and materials that actually allow me to teach, I have to work that much harder to get the students to see me as a teacher and not a babysitter.
5. As I said before, I don't have the luxury of not going to work if I just don't feel like working that day. I have bills to pay. I don't get paid for holidays, summer/winter/spring breaks, or the days I can't work due to illness or lack of sub jobs. I need money just like everyone else. It is very hard to get by on substitute pay.
My hope is that teachers will respect teachers whether they are regular classroom teachers or substitute teachers. It's bad enough that we aren't always respected by the students we teach or their parents, or even by our administrators at times. Why do we have to disrespect our peers just because they have decided to stay in the teaching field whether they have their own class or not?
"Well, you don't have a full time job, do you?"
"It's a lot easier being a substitute, isn't it?"
"At least you don't have to go to work if you don't want to."
Here are some facts that I think everyone out there needs to remember:
1. I am a professional and take my job seriously.
2. I substitute because I love teaching and don't yet have my forever classroom.
3. I am not salaried. I get paid for the days I do work and not for any of the days I don't. I have to work every day that I am able to work because I have bills to pay just like everyone else.
4. Teaching in any capacity is hard work when you take your job seriously. I am not there to babysit the kids in a classroom. I want them to be learning the whole time I am there. In fact, if the regular teacher can leave plans where I can actually teach, it makes it easier for the students to see me as a real teacher and then my job won't be as hard. Every day I enter a different classroom and have to learn about the students I am teaching in a very short amount of time. Sometimes, I am lucky enough to be in a class I have been in another time, and then I don't have to work so hard to learn about the students. However, when I don't have plans and materials that actually allow me to teach, I have to work that much harder to get the students to see me as a teacher and not a babysitter.
5. As I said before, I don't have the luxury of not going to work if I just don't feel like working that day. I have bills to pay. I don't get paid for holidays, summer/winter/spring breaks, or the days I can't work due to illness or lack of sub jobs. I need money just like everyone else. It is very hard to get by on substitute pay.
My hope is that teachers will respect teachers whether they are regular classroom teachers or substitute teachers. It's bad enough that we aren't always respected by the students we teach or their parents, or even by our administrators at times. Why do we have to disrespect our peers just because they have decided to stay in the teaching field whether they have their own class or not?
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