Grandma LaLa

Nobody told me that being a Grandma was bigger than being a mom. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy that my daughter gets to enjoy being the mommy. However, the joy I get from being with Seed and seeing Punkin mothering him is so great. I really had no idea that I could love another child more than I love my own two children, but Seed wins, hands down. Being a Grandmother is the best thing in the world. I am highly rewarded every day that I come home and see my smiling little grandson. He is so worth all the trials in life that we go through. One look at his little angelic face and all my cares and worries melt away.

Heather is such a lucky woman. She is a beautiful daughter and an even more beautiful mother. Demetrion is so lucky to have chosen her to be his mother in this life. Every thing and any thing he desires will be at his feet. His pedestal is so tall and deservedly so. His name is a reflection of being a follower of Demeter. He will be able to bring new life to the cold barren land of anyone's heart. New life is the most precious of all gifts and Demetrion is living proof of that.

I am so blessed!

I was raised knowing that if my parents told me "no" I wasn't going to get an explanation as to why they said "no." I had to live with the fact that my request was not granted and move on. I find, so often, that if I tell someone "no" to a question that has only one other possible answer simply because I mean "no," that someone wants to know why. I don't owe you an explanation. I don't owe you anything. I have a decision when you make a request. I can grant that request or I can refuse that request. The choice is mine. There is a reason, of course there is always a reason whether my answer is yay or nay, but I don't owe you an explanation of the reason I have chosen. Learn to accept that my response may not be the one you were looking for and move forward. Make another choice. Give up or keep trying elsewhere. But, know this, when I say "no," I mean "no."

Entering a new mode

I find myself entering a new mode. I want newness in my life and am willing to step up to the challenge of taking my introverted self into an extroverted life. I am not sure how this will all work out, but feel excited to work on my own metamorphosis. It has been a long time coming. Instead of being a self-made martyr, I intend on making the changes in my life I need in order to reap the goodness that my life should have always been.